��� Suck-Tastic= when you feel sucky, generally hurt, ache and all things sucky. But at the same time you are moderatly excited about maybe one thing happening that day. But overall sucky-ness.
��� I havenapos;t blogged in like....a long time? But I came here because I donapos;t know what else to do. I have to get this off my mind and chest. -.-. Iapos;m not mad, or even annoyed. Iapos;m just hormonal and upset so instead of talking to Jeb, which might upset him, because I�guess I get on his nerves sometimes I came here.
��� I usually, when I fell sucky, go to his house. Itapos;s quiet, he holds me, and I fell like 100 better. He makes me happy even when I feel itapos;s impossible to feel happy. But there are times like this weekend where this just evidently isnapos;t avaliable for me. For example today is Patch day, the much awaited Patch day (the apos;tasticapos; part of the day). So for today Josh and Jessi, two of his oldest friends and my newer ones are over there, which would be fine. If it wasnapos;t sucky. The only thing is that Josh has been there since Saturday night (raid night, we had Karazan) and Jessi has been there since Sunday (not spending the night, leaving her computer and just sleeping at her house till the next day when she spends 12 hrs with them). Am I being selfish when I want maybe one night of us time? I was hoping with this being Fall Break I would be able to have one full day with him (which I almost got Saturday, but saturday was a day I was feeling okay). I canapos;t go over and have him kick josh of the bed to cuddle me, and I donapos;t like cuddling with some for serious (like letting me and him just be me and him) with one, let alone two people sitting next to us glancing over and trying to talk to us. I feel selfish but that the same time I just wonder why I canapos;t have one day when they have had almost what... 50 going on 74 hrs. I guess it doesnapos;t help that naturally I am a protective little thing and when �girl spends more time with my boyfriend for three days in a row than I do I kinda freak out a little inside.
����� So instead of feeling better at any point this weekend I have felt like shit all weekend. I went over there yesterday night but I donapos;t like having to socialize right now. And when I asked if I could come over for apos;usapos; time wedn I find out Josh will still be there, and probably Jessi as well...
���� I love Josh and I love Jessi... But I love Jeb more. I havenapos;t spent any time with him... And I miss him. I donapos;t want to spend time with the J-team this weekend,�I wanted to spend time with Jeb this weekend. And I have wound up crying myself to sleep last night because of this. But I wonapos;t say anything to Jeb, and I know itapos;s because I want him to be happy. If he is happy hanging out with them and not me then I will let him be and he can hang out with them. Iapos;m not mad at him because of it, just sad that I dontapos; get to have Jeb and Sarah time.
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